This is going to be deep. I am so charged with all these love sparks flying around me.
To begin with this is my first valentine’s day where I do not have a significant other to celebrate the day after almost three years. On casual thinking, this experience kind of stinks. But on a deeper thought I think it is a great experience too.
Living a single life after three of years of a relationship is not easy at all. If breaking up process is bad enough then to add to the misery is the time after the break up which is much worse. There were times early on – just after the break up when I would just cry to myself and feel very depressed. I also felt that I lost my social skills since I could not make new friends or interact with other girls. At times I felt that I am standing in the middle of a busy footpath with people moving all round me going about their business. Nobody seemed to talk to me or have anything to do with me. I thought of walking up to some of these people asking them if they would be my friend. I think being lonely is not as bad as feeling lonely in a crowd!
But that was eight months back. I am much stronger now. I have new friends, new interests, new goals, new outlook etc. To quote a nice saying “it only when the glare of the sun is lost in the darkness of night that we are able to appreciate the beauty of the stars” I find this so true. I no longer have a girlfriend or a sweetheart and I am able to ‘see’ new friends and appreciate their friendship. I have also realized that the biggest skill one should learn or acquire is the skill to be happy and content with one’s own company. When you have reached that level you would be able to fully love and accept and adjust and appreciate the other person’s presence in your life.
I will get there soon. Each day it will hurt less.
So this 14th Feb is going to be an I (me and myself) day for me.
I-Day rocks!
Posted by vivekm | December 31, 1969, 5:00 pmSome people never get satisfied. You go a such a wonderful weekend. Drive+Music+Coffee+Member of opposite sex – phir bhi monday ko rota hai…
Posted by vivekm | February 14, 2005, 8:19 pmHere’s to your freedom…
Speaking of mine – you know any nice looking guys?
Posted by bhavanar | February 14, 2005, 9:12 pmTrue. Most of us would kill for a Sunday like that! A true member of the kamina group.
Posted by nvivek | February 14, 2005, 9:52 pmHmmm.. enjoyed your killer weekend and cribbing for more huh? Just my style
.. Although its been a long time since I had a killer weekend.
Posted by weltanschauungs | February 14, 2005, 10:22 pmNice that you are feeling good and cheerful.
” Heartbreaks last as long as you want,
and cut as deep as you allow them to go,
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks,
But to learn from them. “
Posted by aneeta_04 | February 15, 2005, 1:17 amI think you guys read the posts back to back. Both the events are disjoint as in they have nothing to do with each other. Let me clarify…
The staturday post was an informational post with aim being to let my friends know about a wonderful staturday I had.
The monday’s post was general writing of some of the thoughts that has been swiming around in my head. And I thought 14th would be the most appropriate today to do it. After I did the post it was almost like I have renewed myself.
But yes more of such staturdays are always welcome.
Posted by iamneo | February 15, 2005, 8:55 amNo we dont. We dont want to be blamed for ruining any guys life.
Posted by vivekm | February 15, 2005, 11:56 amHumph
Posted by bhavanar | February 15, 2005, 8:57 pm